My mummy is great!!!

the past week has been "dusty"... my block is undergoing upgrading and they started working on both my toilets yesterday. I had a shock when i reached home last night, every inch of the floor is covered with dust...and it's only DAY ONE!!! ARGHHH!!!! 10 more days to go.. of having to use the portable toilet they installed in the master bedroom.

As i said, my mum is great! She got us to glad-wrap all our cupboards, furniture, decorative items at home (the nagging finally got into me and i only did my room last sunday). She's the first to get up yesterday to cover the hse with black garbage bags and last to sleep cos she was still vacuuming the floor. Without her, i think my plc will be in a very very bad state. Thanks mum!

Aiyoh, i really dread the cleaning after the toilets are done.

oh gosh, it's nearly the end of nov... so many things to do - events to wrap up, people to chase before they disappear for xmas hols, setting the framework for 2004's event. Of course, not to forget that we all have our personal stuff to take care.

bcos we are so swamped with "urgent" matters, my colleagues and I had a "technical shut-down" last evening, just too overwhelmed that we can't proceed. Instead, we had a good chat at my cubicle about expectations. Actually, it was an excellent session which i hope inspired my colleagues to continue the journey (some are so discouraged that they are contemplating quitting :( )

Bosses' expectations of us and our expectations of bosses, expectations of ourselves etc etc... The bottomline is that all of us are scared that we don't meet up to people's expectations, that we are failures in the eyes of our bosses/colleagues.

Here's something i read in the papers today...

Thought for the week:

Failure is
- not avoidable
- not an event (but a process)
- subjective and not objective
- not the enemy but the teacher
- not irreversible
- not a stigma
- not final

~ John C Maxwell

Right!

"When I always choose the action that love sponsors, then I wil experience the full glory of who I am and who I can be?"

There is only one purpose for all of life, and that is for you and all that lives to experience fullest glory. Everything else you say, think, or do is attendant to that funtion. There is nothing else for your soul to do, and nothing else your soul wants to do.

The deepest secret is that life is not a process of discovery, but a process of creation. You are not discovering yourself, but creating yourself anew. Seek, therefore, not to find out Who You Are, seek to determine Who You Want to Be.

- Conversations with God, Book One

Cheem right??? Yes, it is profound and i struggled a little to follow the diagolue. But this is very much in line with what HL told me just 2 days ago... to think about who i want to be.

Life keeps sending you the messages until you get it.

And thanks to V who sms-ed me yesterday... to remind me that I am I, and I must not forget that my feelings are part and parcel of me... that it's okie to be down... the feeling will pass :)

Aiyoh... i have been so busy lately... time flies!

The few "highlights" during the past week: (1) my super old "back-up" notebook finally died on me. This is one of those 1st generation lappie that don't even have a USB port... antique. But it served me well the weeks when my desktop modem was down. Guess its "death" forced me to get the modem fixed. Now, i am writing from my desktop :) (2) been building up my relationships with mum and dad. It's nice to be spending some time with my folks, something that always take the back-burner in my busy social and work life. (3) getting more "clarity" about some issues in my life (not going to explain anymore on blog... sorrie!)

I better rest early tonight... at least 80% of my colleagues are down with flu or cough and i think i just caught the sniffy bug. And the 3 big ulcers in my mouth are killing me :(